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- bismillah -

Because He knows me best. 

At this very time of the year, on the last year, i wrote a story. Of which, didnt happen at all in the reality. 

I wrote about attending graduation ceremony for my seniors, but then here i am in malaysia, not irbid. 

I didnt plan anything

He planned all those 

I bought flight tickets without any careful planning

But Allah has make it an ease. 

I might be sad in irbid that Allah has channelled me back to hometown

There were seniors graduating

Leaving only us to lead the organisation

I might not see them again

If i were ever to, we might not know each other anymore in three years to come. 

There were hopes in irbid

That i am here to face reality instead

Because He knows me best. 

I need my family. 

I need Him. 

More than anything else. 

At this very time of the year. 

That's why i am here in malaysia. 

This is a very tough time. 

Am going to clinical years

Am going to face ramadhan

In syaa Allah

Am also going to face death

Of which only Allah knows it well. 

I build some dreams. 

Of which i am scared for them to happen

Or can they actually happen?

When death is always there. 

Dreaming, while death is not getting farther. 

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Jannah. Strive for it, you gain all others. 

In syaa Allah.