Monday, July 15, 2019

Hello paeds!

- bismillah -

Alhamdulillah. Currently i'm in my 5th posting. For whoever had wish me and pray for me since the start of my career journey, this is all thank to you too. :)
And may all the good works and things that had happened, i wish everyone of us may received the saham / good shares of them too. Credited into your akhirat account amiin.

Well, being a 5th poster isnt easy. At day 2 of life in a new department, (sing: a whole new world~) my friend and i were expected to manage a ward on our own. So there we are terkial2 amik darah, struggling hard to hold the kids and what more the drop method moments omgggg. Our first week as tagger was a hell. Plus some comments from our (respected) superiors, "korang ni bukan 5th poster ke?"


Like... Is K 3.0 in adult as same as in kids? We dont know. If in old wards we would have started tab slow k, mist kcl. I noted K 5.9 of a neonate to my superior and she said okay. So yeah, paeds posting is completely something new that (it's our fault) even a 5th poster cannot enter bare hands hahahahaha.

In the 2nd week of tagging, i started working in NICU. It is better. Blood taking and branula skill is improving. Even 1 person is enough to take blood and the baby don't really kick you. We can sit and eat. Not such during our 1st week in ward, i just bukak puasa with 10mls water for injection. Horror. Going home at almost 11pm++ every day in the first 7 days.

And because taking care of conva is such a carefree and easy (provided the babies are stable and few admission those days), my superiors yang jaga baby prem dekat intermediate and mo side were struggling while we were sitting 😂 and then they call for our help laa..

"awak mai sini assist saya masuk uvc"

Huh uvc tu apa weh hahahahaha monolog dalam hati dengan muka tak ready tapi kaki jalan pi jugak.

Lepas dah assist dr baru laaa teringat umbilical venous catheterization. Hewhewhew.

Dekat sini, as a 5th poster, alhamdulillah finally found the advantage... At least i dont irritate my superiors with sterile technique and stuffs. Yeay scrub gaya masuk OT #rinduortho lol.

Phew. Baru nak mula hidup. Doakan paeds posting ni diberkati dan dipermudahkan.

Semoga Allah izin jadi doktor terbaik yang Allah redha dunia dan akhirat, i want to give the best to ME, because our life is very short... So being capable at work, doing kindness and being obedient to Allah, are the ways to GIVE THE BEST to my ownself...

Segala daya dan upaya datang dari Allah.

Ps. Demam, viral fever, and i dont want to take an mc... Because if i did, i'm scared i would seek mc again and again in the future... May Allah grant me good health amiin.

Tuesday, June 11, 2019

Ortho moments

- bismillah -

Yesterday was one longed awaited day, an elective ot day. I barely had chance for elot. Even there was once given previously but suddenly my friend just seized the chance. Well, kinda disappointed but i believe in Allah's plan.

And yesterday i was given paeds elective ot. With mo and specialist who i am comfortable with. All three of us are females ♥️

What i respect my surgeon is she always say bismillah, loudly, for everything she did. Even scrubbing. Did u ever said bismillah when scrubbing? 😥

And the fact that this might be my last chance in OT, so i enjoyed every moment very much. I found that it was more relaxing than before.

As for today, might be my last day in ortho clinic. Staff nurses are amazingly friendly today, even though we had most of patients today since the last week patients are forwarded to today after few days of raya break. My kind mo (khsk) sat in front of me, helping me with discussion of cases that i saw in clinic. And all my patients are wonderful. Some even wished me selamat hari raya. May Allah bless them all with good health.

Above all, i thank Allah for everything. May i would be able to finish everything in its best. Because the end is the ultimate value of everything.

May Allah bless me, always. Amiin.

Monday, June 3, 2019

Ramadan 30

- bismillah -

Alhamdulillah. Allah izin mengecapi ramadan hingga hari ini.

Sesungguhnya, apabila kita meminta yg terbaik, maka apa yang Allah beri itulah yang terbaik untuk kita. Malah, Allah sentiasa memberikan kebaikan kepada hamba-Nya walaupun kita tak minta.

Allah maha kaya, Allah maha berkuasa.

Alhamdulillah tahun ni Allah izin jadi tahun kedua beraya sebagai pekerja. Allah izin hidupkan malam2 tertentu dengan pekerjaan.

Semoga, Allah izinkan karierku sebagai amal soleh.

Farhana, sentiasa lah tuntun diri kau menjadi mukmin.
Hati mu. Lidahmu. Jasadmu.
Ketika ramai dan seorang diri.
Jadilah muslimah mukminah,
Dont settle for the less.
And do build high hopes.
Ada di sana mukmin muslim yg Allah redha,
Semoga kita diredhai dengan keberkatan perkahwinan.

Yes i do think about getting married as my age increasing hahaha.

But i know, marriage in never the only ultimate aim for my life in this world.

Married Asiyah, the wife of firaun, only find peace and eternal hope in Allah.

"Oh Allah, build me near You a house in the heaven." her doa is recorded in the eternal script of Quran.

A wealthy, powerful husband isnt everything .

Allah is my only source of love, the only key to the best of my life, now and hereafter.

Ya Tuhan kami, kurniakan lah kepada kami, dalam kalangan pasangan dan anak2 kami, sebgai penyejuk mata, dan jadikan lah kami sebagai pemimpin bagi orang yang bertaqwa.

Semoga Allah berikan the best of the world and akhirat to me, and all of us.

Saturday, May 25, 2019

Ramadan 20

Baru keluar ot. 945am. Duduk kejap, for brain dump.

I started my oncall last night at 1930h, buka puasa dalam kereta dengan mak ayah, then sambung buka puasa makan nasi kerabu di pantry sorang2. Minum mocha setin, then pergi solat. Pkul 2010h ready untuk amik passover dari orang kerja pm.

Then, masuk satu case baru di ed. Cepat2 i jawab ok dr sebab nak pi ed, tak mau masuk ot.

Trace xray, eh lain macam ja. Pi tengok patient, tudia,,,, open fracture with tibiotalar dislocation. Ankle joint dia terkeluar habis. Nampak tulangggg.

And semua orang suruh aku masuk ot, jangan stay di ed sebab tu tanda2 kejonahan. Hahaha. Sayu gak laa. Tapi takpa, pujuk diri, benda tu dalam kawalan Allah, bukan dalam kawalan aku utk pesakit mai kes teruk2.

Lagi pun, malam 20 ramadan, a very blessed night in the last 10 days of ramadan. I pray for the best. And everything about ramadan is all about blessing. So my jonahness is also a blessing.

So i went to ot.

And no referal at ed, at all. While i was in ot, my friends can go ot to buy food.

Luckily i brought along bekal for sahur.

And sebelum ot start, semayang isyak dulu.

Alhamdulillah. Ot habis less than 1 hour before subuh. Allah izin sempat terawikh di surau ot. Dan makan makanan bekal utk sahur.

Lepas subuh, 0630h ada kes ot lagi. Tapi 0750h baru mula. Aduiyai.

Habis 0850h. Letih. Tapi Allah izin yg terbaik utk hamba Dia yg serahkan diri pada Dia. Allah takkan bebankan seseorang melebihi kemampuan.

Anyway, i am grateful for the open fracture cases. I am grateful to be in ot. I am grateful to be a doctor. Alhamdulillah.

So, berdasarkan cerita di atas, bilakah masanya saya tidur?
Masa dlm ot 😂😂😂nasib baik dr tak nampak or terhuyung hayang haha.

Thursday, May 23, 2019


"hello dr, saya dari bla bla bla.. Sy nak tanya, betul ke kalau nak inform pasal pt post op, inform dr?"
I want to first make sure i'm calling the right person.

And she scold me out of nowhere thinking i'm going to refer a case. Here ho cannot do referal.

"saya nak cakap dengan mo saja." katanya. Letak tepon.

So i told my mo. Then my respected mo (ud56) pun call la mo kerek tu.

Lps habis cakap semua, my mo kutuk mo kerek tu... Bla bla bla...

Sekian happy ending.

Urm jgn kerek ye. Ho ni mmg la...semua benda salah.
Tp ni bulan posa kot. Semoga, kerjaya anda yg begitu hanya penat di dunia saja... May u flourish in ur career, but with empty ending in akhirat.

Friday, May 10, 2019

Ahlan ramadan

- bismillah -

Ramadan is here, again, alhamdulillah. This is my second ramadan working.

I tried my best to lift the spirit for ramadan. Read quran from phone while waiting (outside the room) for a patient doing mri (kiv for sedation). But blergh... Everyone else beside me who were also waiting were laughing and taking selfies!! I stopped after few minutes. The spirit is just not there... :(

I missed the environment in jordan during ramadan.... Can u imagine, one day, i entered an office building and found everyone was holding quran? (there was one officer watching video from his pc though, but he was wearing earphones!)

And when i was inside the bus commuting from the university hospital to my apartment, i could see there were people reading quran inside the bus... Those who didnt, just kept quiet. Even taxi/ bus drivers didnt switch on their radios with loud banging arabic music like other days prior ramadan...

Everyone just slow down and respect the holyness of ramadan...

But not in here currently my working place :( :(

Nobody want to solat jamaah, what more solat tarawikh at hospital...
Nobody compete to offer foods for breaking our fast...
And no one read quran in public.... Not even in private at surau/bilik rehat

Just sleep... Or chatting.. Like normal days



Tonight i will be on call with my non muslims friends. And i cannot fast currently.

May Allah help me boost my ramadan spirit and may He grant me the best of ramadan, better than my previous years. Amiin.

Because we never know whether this could be our last... :'(

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

Klinik rabu

- bismillah -

Alhamdulillah. Hari ni klinik outpatient. Allah izin duduk dengan mo baik. Banyak case boleh discuss easily with my dr. Bila dia ada hal, kawan dia yang baik jugak pulak datang ganti.

Waktu klinik sesi petang, sorang patient mai pukul 3. Oklah discuss dengan bos. Then, sorang lagi mai pukul 5. Huhuhuhu. Pukul 455pm.

Yg pukul 5 tu, miss (specialist) sendiri bangun dan pergi jumpa pesakit dekat luar.. Tayah amik nombor apa dah. Sbb pukul 5 tu semua orang angkat bag. Tapi what i respected about my boss ni, dia sendiri bangun cepat2 pi dekat waris patient tu. Boleh ja dia nak blah balik tinggalkan ho ni clerk dan cari sendiri mo utk discuss.

And patient tu miss decide utk masuk wad.

Sebab miss dah tahu kes tu hospital lain dah refer dia dari awal tadi. Hehe. Cuma pakcik tu, berserah pada ilahi, mai klinik dekat2 pukul 5 sebab dia baru sampai dari hospital yang satu lagi nu.

Betapa Tuhan tak pernah sia2kan usaha hamba-Nya. And things that we cannot control, Allah ja yg boleh aturkan.


For every good person that Allah surrounded me with. Alhamdulillah.

Semoga segala kebaikan sentiasa berterusan berkatnya. Amiin

Hello paeds!

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