Ramadan 20

Baru keluar ot. 945am. Duduk kejap, for brain dump.

I started my oncall last night at 1930h, buka puasa dalam kereta dengan mak ayah, then sambung buka puasa makan nasi kerabu di pantry sorang2. Minum mocha setin, then pergi solat. Pkul 2010h ready untuk amik passover dari orang kerja pm.

Then, masuk satu case baru di ed. Cepat2 i jawab ok dr sebab nak pi ed, tak mau masuk ot.

Trace xray, eh lain macam ja. Pi tengok patient, tudia,,,, open fracture with tibiotalar dislocation. Ankle joint dia terkeluar habis. Nampak tulangggg.

And semua orang suruh aku masuk ot, jangan stay di ed sebab tu tanda2 kejonahan. Hahaha. Sayu gak laa. Tapi takpa, pujuk diri, benda tu dalam kawalan Allah, bukan dalam kawalan aku utk pesakit mai kes teruk2.

Lagi pun, malam 20 ramadan, a very blessed night in the last 10 days of ramadan. I pray for the best. And everything about ramadan is all about blessing. So my jonahness is also a blessing.

So i went to ot.

And no referal at ed, at all. While i was in ot, my friends can go ot to buy food.

Luckily i brought along bekal for sahur.

And sebelum ot start, semayang isyak dulu.

Alhamdulillah. Ot habis less than 1 hour before subuh. Allah izin sempat terawikh di surau ot. Dan makan makanan bekal utk sahur.

Lepas subuh, 0630h ada kes ot lagi. Tapi 0750h baru mula. Aduiyai.

Habis 0850h. Letih. Tapi Allah izin yg terbaik utk hamba Dia yg serahkan diri pada Dia. Allah takkan bebankan seseorang melebihi kemampuan.

Anyway, i am grateful for the open fracture cases. I am grateful to be in ot. I am grateful to be a doctor. Alhamdulillah.

So, berdasarkan cerita di atas, bilakah masanya saya tidur?
Masa dlm ot 😂😂😂nasib baik dr tak nampak or terhuyung hayang haha.

Kerek

"hello dr, saya dari bla bla bla.. Sy nak tanya, betul ke kalau nak inform pasal pt post op, inform dr?"
I want to first make sure i'm calling the right person.

And she scold me out of nowhere thinking i'm going to refer a case. Here ho cannot do referal.

"saya nak cakap dengan mo saja." katanya. Letak tepon.

So i told my mo. Then my respected mo (ud56) pun call la mo kerek tu.

Lps habis cakap semua, my mo kutuk mo kerek tu... Bla bla bla...

Sekian happy ending.

Urm jgn kerek ye. Ho ni mmg la...semua benda salah.
Tp ni bulan posa kot. Semoga, kerjaya anda yg begitu hanya penat di dunia saja... May u flourish in ur career, but with empty ending in akhirat.

Ahlan ramadan

- bismillah -

Ramadan is here, again, alhamdulillah. This is my second ramadan working.

I tried my best to lift the spirit for ramadan. Read quran from phone while waiting (outside the room) for a patient doing mri (kiv for sedation). But blergh... Everyone else beside me who were also waiting were laughing and taking selfies!! I stopped after few minutes. The spirit is just not there... :(

I missed the environment in jordan during ramadan.... Can u imagine, one day, i entered an office building and found everyone was holding quran? (there was one officer watching video from his pc though, but he was wearing earphones!)

And when i was inside the bus commuting from the university hospital to my apartment, i could see there were people reading quran inside the bus... Those who didnt, just kept quiet. Even taxi/ bus drivers didnt switch on their radios with loud banging arabic music like other days prior ramadan...

Everyone just slow down and respect the holyness of ramadan...

But not in here currently my working place :( :(

Nobody want to solat jamaah, what more solat tarawikh at hospital...
Nobody compete to offer foods for breaking our fast...
And no one read quran in public.... Not even in private at surau/bilik rehat

Just sleep... Or chatting.. Like normal days

T-T

Anyway,

Tonight i will be on call with my non muslims friends. And i cannot fast currently.

May Allah help me boost my ramadan spirit and may He grant me the best of ramadan, better than my previous years. Amiin.

Because we never know whether this could be our last... :'(