Hormonal episode

- bismillah -

Currently, i have a month left before ending the training in current posting.

I guess seeing babies born everyday has made me kinda, vulnerable. I feel more like enjoying being that fragile lady who has one beside her to comfort her. And I think i want to be a mom too, something i never thought before. And that thinking proceeded with getting married.

Out of sudden, i started to only now realised that almost 'all' my friends are married. Those in my study years, housemates, batch mates, school mates, hahahaha, i just started to realise this lol. And it is already 2019! that some of them already got 2 kids (dont ask me about their contraceptive methods tho). How fast the time flies and my life is still the same.

And before this, i was always in my comfort zone, not wanting to get married yet. But recently my family has been asking about when i will be getting married, that somehow has stir me out of my comfort zone. Nobody was ever complaint before 😂😅

Before this i enjoy to be friend with everyone, but now i feel lazy to mingle with the thought of getting married inside my head. It's making me scanning my colleagues if they are one of the potential colleague! Ah it's tiring. I want the old me back who is carefree, no need to worries about finding/searching the one...

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whenever 'kakak staffness' tanya whether i'm single or not, i would always give an answer that simply cut the conversation.

It's just mood swing, from frequent exposure to oxytocin 😂😂😂😂
I give to people in labor to ease their delivery, who knows i got the tempias too.

Later, next department, i hope i would be more serious in my career.
The current department has been making me more vulnerable day by day with women's hormones 😭

End.

Of faith and hope

- bismillah -

Just a simple note from i encountered at the clinic yesterday...

Upon seeing a very bright smile on her face at the clinic yesterday, i didnt even know that she was once had 1 episode of "unexplained abruptio placenta" at 39 weeks on previous pregnancy, resulting in intrauterine fetal death.

A strong abdominal pain was mistaken as contraction pain. Little did everyone knows, the ctg finally flatten.

I believe her strength i see now comes from a very supportive environment, a deep-seated faith, and a loving family.

May Allah take good care of her on her current pregnancy. 🌹

Teringat cerita addin dan benz.. Hewhew... Mcm mana benz pujuk addin bila dia keguguran, kembali kepada tadabbur surah kahfi.

And kemarin, kakak nurse klinik tu pujuk patient, "in shaa Allah anak tu jadi anak syurga, sedang menunggu di sana."

Indeed, the couple lose nothing. Allah. The beauty of faith, taqwa, doa and iman.