Alhamdulillah. Berpeluang menjejak 2021, hari pertama bersamaan Jumaat juga.
2020, ialah tahun yang sekejap.
Sekejap saja, tahu2 habis housemanship.
Then floating di department yang diminta.
PKP. MCO for whole nation, merasa la jalan raya lengang sebab everyone stayed home except us frontliners.
My whole family tinggal di rumah kampung for quite few months (kakak wfh, abang pindah).
I struggled with my skin condition worsening. But alhamdulillah, kejap ja, Allah izin jumpa rawatan.
Been to colmar tropicale, which was among my wishlist masa kecik2.
Revisited teluk batik with whole family.
Raya haji with family full house.
Blessed birthday celebrations for everyone.
Visited few houses before buying, ada yang tak jadi, alhamdulillah. Ada yang menjadi, in shaa Allah.
Sekejap saja duduk ED, then kena pindah KK utk penempatan semula.
Lebih lapang, lebih banyak ujian masa dan iman sebenarnya.
Enjoyed the moment of my first few implanons insertions, antenatal scans, menyantuni pakcik makcik tua, menyantuni anak2 kecil yg terlebih berat atau terkurang berat, yang tidak bercakap, yang hyperactive.
Then sekejap saja, sudah tamat 2020.
So to recap, 2020 is more to having family support and love alhamdulillah.
My career? ada progress, alhamdulillah.
My relationship? Haha. Met few, yes few, but Allah surely has better plan for me.
My self growth? I learnt chinese language (and still slowly progressing), oh ya just remembered that in 2020, i changed the furnitures inside my bedroom to white hehe and with everyones help too. What more can i say in terms of self growth?
Well, in 2020, i was diagnosed with chronic autoimmune disease. It was hard to live with it, but anyway it has been with me since early 20's, just that in 2020 i got to meet the correct doctor for the diagnosis and treatment. To be honest, i am grateful for it because i pray for the cure and the diagnosis for so long (seek various medical facilities and different doctors but none be able to catch it). So finally, in June 2020, my assumption for self assessment was correct. (I am in medical field, i know my condition, but i need the authorised doctor to evaluate me for the diagnosis and treatment).
So, having this chronic condition, not just anyone would suit me. Not just anyone can be my spouse.
And i am grateful for the tapisan. Thank you Allah.
My spouse, which Allah dah tentukan di lauh mahfuz, must be someone so special... because i myself cant accept my condition too sometimes...*tears
(Maybe he is not in this world...
But in akhirat, in shaa Allah my disease would not be there anymore.
I pray for Jannah, because in there, nobody will have any sickness ma shaa Allah.)
Only Allah can accept me.
Only ones who are chosen by Allah can accept me.
I thank Allah for all the love and care from my family, from everyone who loves me.
Indeed, Allah's love is above everything.
Thank you Allah for all the love.
Thank you Allah for all the care.
Thank you Allah for everything.
اللهمّ إنّي أسئلك حبّك وحبّ من يحبّك والعمل الّذين يبلّغنا إلى حبّك
