4 days to go...

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Alhamdulillah... Allah maha besar. Pejam celik, lagi 4 hari untuk saya exam end of posting... Bermakna lagi 4 hari untuk habis bulan ketiga... In shaa Allah.

Doakan, penutup nya adalah kebaikan :)

Semoga Allah berkati saya.

Semoga pekerjaan ini bukan menzalimi diri sendiri atau sesiapa.

Terima kasih Allah atas segalanya. Terima kasih atas segala persepsi, layanan, teguran, ceramah dan tunjuk ajar yang Kau izinkan berlaku.

Sesungguhnya, tiada daya dan upaya melainkan dengan pertolongan Allah.

Senyum

Allah akan ganti yang lebih baik, asalkan kita redha dengan apa yg kita 'hilang' / tak dapat capai.

🌸

In action

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Today, is a full day alhamdulillah. My patients that i've been following them since admission have been discharged today. I am happy that i was a part of their healing journey.

Everyday, is an opportunity to learn and to challenge ourselves. Today, one of my bedbound patient suddenly developed calfs pain which tender on palpation, mild dizziness and sob. She was very tachypneic. However noted lungs are relatively clear, afebrile eventhough warm on touch. I took her blood 😂 it was the most challenging event to take blood from pt with query sepsis/PE.

PE and septic work up
Portable cxray
ECG

Balik umah cek blood ix, everything was negative for both PE and sepsis.

Haha. So tadi was a pretest from Allah for me to get ready for my 1st oncall.

Then where was the source of 156bpm heartbeat with febrile feeling without elevation in temperature.
🤔🤔🤔

Dr senyum je bila almost sejam baru dapat blood. Dr baru tau saya 1st poster. Hehehehe. I've done my best. My friends pun done their best in helping me and the patient.

Semoga esok lebih baik.
Amiin.

Ps. Tadi dr H medical tegur, aku ingat hang... Hehehe alhamdulillah... Bersalah jugak la tak perkenalkan diri pernah jadi student elektif.. Sbb risau dr tak ingat. Hewhew. So tak konpiden.

Anyway, doakan yang baik2...

Semoga Allah izin farhana jadi dr yg kompeten. Amiin.

Ps2. Haaa lupa. Haritu dah merasa bagging sambil berlari ke OT utk patient yang perforated GU. Hewhew. Drama sangattt.

Semoga Allah lindung farhana selalu

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Tidak akan menimpa kami, melainkan apa yang telah tertulis kepada kami.

Quite disappointed today to have mess things up in front of my mentor, however, that's all poops from my colleagues. Two of them just dont join the round, leaving me and a kakak who dont really talk/presenting anything, to present to the dr. Some of the cases are well known to me, but the rest are quite vague.

Lessons learnt are that:
Settle my own job first,
Dont listen/talk/interact to one who left poops everywhere,

I just dont want to talk to that person tomorrrow.

"Hey, lets practice presenting",

Remember me to reply with something not so good to the ear to her tomorrow.

Selfish people. I'll be more selfish than u towards u.

Not now

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Today is my off day. Spent time with my beloved parents. Alhamdulillah.

Mom talked about our kampung... One house can be built here for my abang, one other there for my sis and me and so on.

I said to her that i dont have such a vision/mision to build a house, yet. What i see now is i want to further my study, go for master programme or parallel exams, then be a specialist, and to practice in uk. That is my 10-year long term goal. Haha. (it is good to dream high right?)

Then suddenly my mom asked,
Rumah tangga macam mana?

Reality hits me hard.

My 3rd week of housemanship

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Out of the many days that had passed, there was a night that 
i witnessed how my kind MO developed hypoglycemia secondary to hyperdedication.

Allah bless him and all good and kind doctors.

My 2nd week of housemanship

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Alhamdulillah... Dah masuk minggu kedua. Esok start hari pertama minggu ke-3.

Cabaran hari2 berbeza.

Dan bila diri sendiri rasa berat dan byk workload, sebenarnya orang lain pun ada workload masing2. So far, hold on to the daily doa... And only Allah can help me in every situation.

Merasa lah review 9 patients utk night round.
Balik pkul 12 tgh malam.
And paling takleh blah bila terkapai2 present case pada visiting consultant urologist. 😪😅 dia mai pkul 11 malam kot.. Naseb baik che tak balik tinggal wad tadak orang 😪😪😪

Anyway, everyday is a blessing.

Semoga hidup dan matiku dalam jagaan Allah.