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My 2016

- bismillah - What i want to achieve in my 24th chapter?

Bismillah dan tawakal utk tahun baru
Alhamdulillah utk tahun lama
2016 has been a very great year for me and family.
Allah cured the illnesses and sadness that we think not easily cured, (measles, ptsd, traumatic post cataract, and much more that myb went unnoticed)
Fought the 11 final exams battle during 5th year,
Blessed ramadan in malaysia breaking fast with parents for complete whole month,
Survived 3-weeks learning and practising in hosp emergency department,
Had a great raya with all full house,
Pursuing final year,
And alive breathing well...

Alhamdulillah.
And not to forget that i got free 3 seats in a long international flight, slept well, comfortable and healthy, while after that i learnt there was a family who need to pay for extra seats to transport their stroke bed-ridden mom home.
Allah has been kind to all of us.
It is the matter of realising or ignoring our blessings...
Bismillah
Alhamdulillah

Chill-est exam

- bismillah -Hari ini dlm sejarah.
:)
Doktor UH angkat thumbs up cakap WELL DONE! dekat satu station osce...Allah...nikmat yg baru dapat di tahun akhir ;')Sebelum mula exam, doktor2 resident cakap station tu doktor paling malignant, i keep calm and doa moga dpt doktor paling baik despite what ever they are saying....and alhamdulillah...station yg org kata susah tu la dapat thumbs up. Dan doktor banyak tolong...sebab i tak paham soalan :'( hahahaDan biasalah, station lain yg lagi senang, hehe tak dapat thumbs up pun, sbb soalan senang pun salah...hihuSemoga kesudahan yg baik utk perjalanan ini.Alhamdulillah.
Allah banyakkk tolong saya dan rakan2.Malam exam saya tidur, sbb sakit kepala dan tak tahu nak study apa. Bangun awal lps tu study. Alhamdulillah.Nabi pesan, kalau kita preoccupied our mind dengan dunia, kefakiran akan terletak di kedua kelopak mata. Jika fikir nak sangat skor, wailing kenapa aku tak boleh etc, akan bertambah2 rasa tak cukup dlm diri. Saya selalu rasa. Tp …

Exam surgery

- bismillah -Ayah send ni di pagi exam.Dulu ayah bagi ayat surah al-Insan.Kalau mengadu takleh study, mak akan reply suruh istighfar.Semua tu full of reflection, exam bukan semata mata exam. Exam ni pun part of ibadah.Thank you mak ayah atas doa kalian.
Terima kasih membimbing anakmu ini dengan iman dan islam.
Semoga Allah hadiahkan Jannah buat mak dan ayah. Amiin.Alhamdulillah.Doakan perjalanan hidup ini bermakna, ada berkat, dan dlm hidayah Allah. 😃😇

You can only give others what you have with you

- bismillah -Breaking.
You cannot give of a self that does not exist. Thus, self-care and self-preservation must be essential to your life if you wish to truly give of yourself to others. You cannot give charity from wealth that does not encompass your possessions, and you cannot give from a spirit that does not encompass your being. So invest in your emotional, physical, and spiritual wealth.
You can only spend from what you have.—an excerpt of PAIN. From the Journal of Umm ZakiyyahRead more:
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Time capture

- bismillah -Alhamdulillah. Rotation surgery berbaki seminggu. Hari2 rasa tak nak balik, rasa nak stay di hospital, but i never did that, eventually balik juga. Rasa nak buat PE banyak2 tanpa awkward, rasa nak masuk OT, yeah tapi semua tu tak buat pun. Tak go to the extra miles. Entah bila nak buat effort mcm tu, tunggu waktu elektif la kot. Setiap petang balik, naik bas, dengan penduduk2 lain. Bersejuk, berhujan, berpanas, mcm orang local. Dan saya dah biasa balik sorang, jadi sebab tu ada banyak masa jadi pemerhati.Tengok rumput dan pokok2 yang berubah ikut musim sepanjang jalan dlm bas yg tinggi, tengok perihal dan kelaku orang...
Kalau balik around zuhur/asar, mudahlah nak nampak orang solat tepi jalan, tepi bangunan...dan hati pun terdetik, aku dah solat ke belum? Dan doakan moga Allah terima amalan orang tu jugak....that feeling bila you tahu doa tu sampai :') being heard after allThen tengok kedai2, peniaga2 kecil...ada ja lah rezeki mereka. Hari ni nampak muka sorang pakci…

Lapang

- bismillah -A hadith narrated as below:
"Whoever makes the Hereafter his preoccupation, then Allah places freedom from want in his heart, gather his affairs, and Dunya (worldly life) comes to him despite being reluctant to do so.And whoever makes Dunya his preoccupation, then Allah places his poverty in front of his eyes, make his affairs scattered, and nothing of the Dunya comes to him except that which has been decreed for him."
[At-tirmidhi]As one of my friends has advised me, nothing in this world is according to our wants and needs. Sometimes, we lost because He wants to free us from false winnings. What is the point of winning when we already lose the moment we think we cant be on the losing team?Kalau semua benda ikut kehendak manusia, huru hara jadinya dunia ni, kata sahabat saya.Betul. Saya baru sedar. Nak sangat hidup ni ikut skrip manusia. Ah, bukankah skrip Tuhan itu lebih cantik dan meluas?Allah tarik/kita tak dapat apa yg kita nak, sebab Allah nak bebaskan ki…

Prayer for Aleppo halab muslims

- bismillah -Today, in the news, it was said that the regime has entered Aleppo. When a regime entered a city of poor and helpless remaining civillians, you can expect the worst they can do to harm anybody within their sights. Rape, burn, massacre. Anything.It rained from last night here in Jordan. My place i'm residing is not withing close range with aleppo, but i believe we share the same weather, climate and time. We even share the same temperature i guess. It is cold. Very cold, if you are living outside the house. Water runs along the road, with puddles and streams of rain water flow to lower areas. Everything is cold, wet and simply uncomfortable, especially when you are denied of electricity, heater, gas and what more denied from having peace.I came home from hospital this afternoon, sitting by my side over the aisle is a syrian boy. He is the youngest in his family. His father was a doctor back then in syria. His eldest brother was about my age. His uncles and aunts are li…

surgery struggle

- bismillah -

alhamdulillah. i am breathing (still).

it has been tiring months, i am currently in surgery rotation, my 3rd rotation for the final year.

well, surgery is tough. every day starts with 8.00 am sharp morning report, 8.30 am we went to the ward to see patients and take good case from them, at 10am then the doctor (consultant/specialist/resident) will come to discuss cases with us and do some bedside teaching. at 11.30 am we are dismissed, and there are another two lectures/seminar awaiting at 1 pm. reach home only at 4pm, which has already been dark because it is winter now (maghrib/sunset at 4.30pm).

phew.

i am not complaining, but i remembered those days in obs & gyne rotation when i reach home at 10am~ i dont like it either to home so early.

well, now since that i spent the whole day outside, things start to be in mess inside my house, i admit that. especially my room.

struggling hard to juggle and balance everything.

but yeah, i am not perfect. and i am happy in my…

Mom

- bismillah -I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love youI long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know
- Hello, Lionel RPs. Mom woke up in the middle of the night and texted me through Line checking up whether her daughter in the other continent is doing fine or not in the cold weather..i somehow think that her doa has made me warm in my blanket without needing the heater at all today..😃😭Alhamdulillah. I believe every mother has always made doa for their children. Think of how your day and night progressed, how things become easy for you, how warm you are in the coldness of winter, these are maybe the answers of prayers by people who love us...And if your mom is not with you anymore in this w…