Saturday, July 16, 2011

what did i have in the new place :)

-bismillah-

assalamualaikum. :)
woah it had been quite a long time since i write this blog's entry in english. well, do excuse me for some grammatical errors (if you really that care of the matter~).

warning : this is just about my mumbling. :]

firstly, living in 'here', i got to know what do i have always wanted.
having sisters (akhawat) who love Allah and Islam, who love being smart and gorgeous in Allah's view, had taught me how important is the wording "Islam is the way of life".

to be frank, i was quite impressed to have them, who simply fit into my cup of cappucino (read : tea lah). i'm happy to have them who see 'not putting their face & photos on social sites is normal and a good thing. there's nothing wrong or rugi about that'. before this, only some of my sisters in school thought the same thing. well, i'd like to stress again that there is nothing wrong if you put your photos as primary photo, it is just about my cappucino. peace ==v

secondly, i get to know myself more. before this, i had barely know what quality do i have. but being here, i know that i possess certain qualities (and of course along with weaknesses). being involve in some religious meetings every week, experiencing 'floating-class' schedule, having fun through the sports activities, all these had taught me ways to tackle situations islamically. well, i don't say that practising islamic values will prohibit one's participation in certain activities, but what i am saying here is that how far would you obey to Allah and hold the principles of islam in every situation. for a simple situation that i can share with you is that i cannnot simply wear a 'longar' shirt to play sport. but i have to wear the handsocks as well so that my arms wont be exposed whenever i catch the ball. this is what i mean when i say about 'optimising my strength for good'.
in short, when you already have a strong principle, dont just hold it, but make it bettter, add some points to it. value yourself by upgrading your former principle. the principles can be some other things apart from islamic principles. let say, your principle is 'being punctual on any occasion'. now try to upgrade it. (dont just be punctual, do something that benefits you when waiting for others who arrive later). again, optimising strength for good. :D


well, it is useless if i didn't optimise my strengths for good, and even worse if i ignore the weaknesses. hehh but i dont think this is the right time for me to share my weaknesses with you :] hihii

thirdly, i learn to value my family and MONEY more when i'm 'here'. speaking about money, i used to be the kind of like brand conscious person~ (lucky i live in perlis before that there are not much of branded things). but now, i'm living in shah alam. haha. at first, i even thought about buying an umbrella at watson instead of mydin. i use a branded softener for my washing. i drink milo instead of ovaltine. i even consider drinking spritzer instead of cactus. heheh. but, money. i start to value my money when i'm short of it. that time, i got no chance of going to the bank atm to do the withdrawal. but alhamdulillah, everything is fine now. the bank is just a stone throw away, all i need is the t.i.m.e to go there.
when i say i learn to value money, it's not that i am being stingy, but it's for my living expenses. i learn to differentiate the words 'necessary' and 'accessory'. hehh (but i drink mineral water instead of boiled cold water - i'll have sore throat if i didnt) =.= and i cant use normal soap for my skin. sekian.

the next thing i learn is, dont ever be a selfish person. especially when we are in the process of learning and studying. i am afraid to say that, for those selfish people, can you answer 'the Question' : "what did you do with the ilmu all by yourself?" "why dont you share the knowledge with others?" "can you hold the knowledge and the practices all by yourself without making it disappear from the world?" or simply an accusation, "it's not my fault that i didnt know about the knowledge. you dont share it with me that i'am now being stupid" -dont ask me who will ask & say these- it's in the afterworld. and nobody knows how will it be.


that's all for now. i would likely to tell you everything if i write more.
thank you very much for your time of getting to know me.
:)

p/s: ayah asked me in phone call one day, "adik, makan minum ok?" ok... "agama macam mana?" terharu ;] moga Allah sayang saya & mak & ayah saya & family saya :) :) :)

Saturday, July 9, 2011

saya baru melangkah, belum menapak apatah lagi melompat~ hehh.

-bismillah-

saya baru melangkah.
baru melihat tompokan politik.
baru mendengar omongan yang bersambung-sambung.
baru merasa sejuknya erti 'rumah' dan panasnya erti 'dunia luar'


saya baru menjejak.
kaki masih baru memijak lantai memasang prinsip diri
tangan masih baru menggapai udara dingin perjuangan
hati masih baru berdetik erti niat yang berpanjangan

saya belum merasa.
pahitnya diserang prinsip diri
peritnya kehilangan insan tersayang
kosongnya kehilangan teman
beratnya menanggung amanah
gembiranya menerima insan peneman


9 Julai 2011
-cemara #xx8-

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p/s : baru. segalanya baru. hadir seorang diri di dunia baru. tiada teman lama. semuanya baru. tapi, prinsip memujuk diri,
"lebih baik keluar dari comfort zone lama, cipta comfort zoneS baru, asyik nak ingat zaman kegemilangan lama ja, sampai bila nak maju~~~" - hehh. :D

tanpa al-Quran dan as-Sunnah, setiap yang 'baru' seakan-akan tiada arah tuju.

tajuk 'perkahwinan' dah jadi silibus baru dalam hidup. =.= saya baru 18 tahun, bila Allah izin, jadilah. bersedia setakat mampu saja. "top up bacaan al-quran, solat, tahajjud ...lain2" - kata ust saya. hurm.
kata ust lagi, "bila isteri berikan ketaatan, suami berikan syurga (dengan izin Allah melalui keredhaan Allah dan keredhaan suami terhadap isteri itu)."

saya tak tahu. mungkin masih baru, maka saya memandang ketaatan kepada suami itu bukan perkara mudah.
mungkin masih baru, maka saya tidak boleh mengatakan 'ya' untuk setiap hal.
mungkin masih mentah, saya tak tahu apa2.

ya, syurga bukan mudah. :] dan syurga bukan hanya untuk yang telah berkahwin sahaja :)
BAHKAN,
siapa yang mencari jalan menuntut ilmu, maka Allah mudahkan kepadanya jalan menuju syurga.

sekarang, tumpuan saya belajar. bagi mereka yang lain "bercinta sampai syurga", saya pula belajar hingga syurga ~ :)

moga Allah tetapkan pendirian dan prinsip diri. doakan :)

sekian. ngee :D

p/s 2 : alhamdulillah :) hati masih waras :) masih mampu menilai antara bintang dengan komet, yang hanya melintas~ haha ==' sengal lagi. adeh

Sunday, July 3, 2011

3rd July 2011 - :)

-bismillah-

Alhamduilllah :)
 Masih sihat dan sejahtera. Syukur.

Air mata menitis lagi. Terharu dengan kasih Allah. Saat diri rasa kerdil tak berteman sefikrah, Allah hantarkan pengantara mengubat kesedihan yang tidak terjemah dengan air mata.

Al-Quran.

Novel Stanza Cinta.

Baru dapat panggilan dari ibu tercinta, katanya ada surat tawaran biasiswa sampai ke rumah. subhanAllah. Alhmdulillah. Moga Allah izin segala yang terbaik buat saya. Nampaknya, rezeki saya di sini bukan di sana. insyaAllah.

Saya mahu belajar fizik, jadi saya mohon biasiswa perguruan fizik.

Saya mahu jadi doktor, jadi saya mohon biasiswa perubatan.

Saya mahu jadi doktor yang belajar fizik.
 Alhamdulillah. Universiti yang akan saya pergi mewajibkan subjek fizik semasa foundation. Sebelum ini agak tidak logik, untuk menggabungkan biology (medicine) dengan fizik. Namun kuasa Allah melebihi segalanya!
subhanAllah, indahnya~!

Semalam beli novel Stanza Cinta. Tak baca semua, tapi dah belek2 semua. Dah tahu jalan cerita. Terjumpa bait-bait indah, sangat menyentuh hati.
“Kamu memiliki segalanya hanya apabila kamu memiliki cinta Allah.”
“Jika kamu perlukan teman, cukuplah Allah sebagai teman seumur hidupmu.”
 SubhanAllah. Moga pergantungan saya pada Allah makin kuat!

Doakan saya selamat dan hebat lagi berjaya di dunia dan akhirat !

p/s : teringat pesanan sahabat di sini, “kita masuk sini sebab rezeki. Bukan sebab result. Doakan rezeki sentiasa ada. Buatlah solat sunat dhuha. Carilah malam al-qadr. Doakan perjalanan smooth, tak perlu repeat paper. Doakan.Allahuakbar!

oh ya, hari ini hari pendaftaran pelajar baru intec. alm aluk alg actp afdp. dan saya kena daftar biasiswa tu hari ni. :) hehh

Bahang september 2011

- bismillah - Baru baca bab 1 buku puan Roza Roslan, travelog kehidupan abadi. Bab 1 beliau cerita pasal kali pertama jejak ke luar negara....